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[Nov. 4th, 2009|06:25 pm] |
I found a websire affliated to the university of Ottawa website that gives me a list of ads for people looking for roommates. ^-^
it lists all prices, some as low as $350 a month, to what's available, internet, laundry, meals, cable, furniture, etc. Most have heating and electricity already...
They range all over Ottawa, and they tell what buses can be taken to get to Ottawa U. and how long.
has a link to google map too!
It definitely makes my searching a lot simpler.. I just have to save up for it now.. and hope that the ones that I like will still be available in December..
it's all very rushing.. but.. I'll take it one step at a time.
My mom told me a really sad story.. and it's probably the truth.. :(
My mom decided to go to casino on my grandmother's anniversary night, hoping that maybe she would give something to her..
She lost money of course.
And then she told me that she shouldn't have hoped so much. My grandmother didn't love my mom. :(
Because my mom was born in the year of the tiger, she has to avoid monkeys. They are bad luck and against her.
Sadly, my grandmother was born in the year of the monkey. So my grandmother treated my mother really badly, if she had treats, she would only give to my mom's siblings, and she would never hug or hold her affectionately or say sweet words.
My grandmother would beat my mom many times with a really hard broom, that has a thick, hard pole, and it would snap in half after beating my mom so much. The only parent who loved her was my grandfather. But my grandmother hated it when my mom was treated nicely or given treats or comfort.
But my mom acknowledges my grandmother that she raised her, breast-fed her, and took care of her, just enough to keep her alive and growing.
I remember last time we went to Vietnam, my mom bought my grandmother a wheelchair. relatives said that it wasn't worth it because she wasn't going to last long to be able to use it for long.
But my mom bought it anyways. She bore no grudge against my grandmother. She didn't hate her. I don't know if I can say she loved her.. but she knows that it's only right to treat your own mother right and respectively.. so that's why she goes to church every year to light incense sticks for my grandmother.
But it certainly has me understand my mom a little better. I can see why she's strict. And how she isn't very comforting or know much positive encouragement.
and it definitely made me think. I would do a lot to make my mom happy and proud.
So I'm sharing this because this is a promise to myself that I will succeed in Nursing. get a respectable job that would make my mom happy and proud to tell the rest of her family. Save up and make sure she lives comfortably in her later years.
I will get into Nursing.
that's my first step.
=D It makes me proud to be her daughter. |
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| Wishing I could be somewhere else... |
[Nov. 2nd, 2009|10:43 pm] |
I'm tired..
Last week was an emotional turmoil.. this just seemed to going wrong... even though..I can't really think of the individual things that made me upset.. just in general.. it was all wrong.. =(
anyways.. I had lots of fun volunteering at the Mayor's trick-or-treat event. Handed out juice. Got free juice in the end. really good juice.
Halloween night was alright.
was really late to meet up with Shannon. Faneeza ended up not allowed.
I was decorating my front door with fake spider webs, spider, snake, jack-o-lantern..and one person came to ask for candy.. @($*&@!! well..my neighbour didn't do better..
which by the way.. has really put herself in my mom's blacklist..
surprisingly, to some people because of her strict nature, she doesn't "hate" people.. she's gotten along with most people.. except for my neighbour.. odd..maybe the neighbour's jealous.. I don't know..
Anyways.. I am feeling a little down..depressed even? it seems that everyone else is depressed or want to kill themselves..
3 people tonight have just said that..
and earlier.. I was thinking what it would be like to not have to worry about deadlines, homework, assignments, projects, study... it sounds very relaxing.. no wonder students are often depressed..
I'd be surprised if everyone I knew survived the first semester of Uni... if they do..they are good from there.. I suppose..
I found out I got bumped down 1% on my psy midterm because the prof decided to take off a question because most people sucked at it.. except for me..I got the second part right.. is it possible to go down one mark??? 66% to a 65%.. D= that's mean.. it placed me farther from the average.
so I'm emailing my prof about it.
I've got an essay to rewrite and somehow improve it by at least 10%. (it's an 80%) when I can't think of anything to improve on.. D=
I've got a term paper and an oral presentation on the same subject for week after next..and I have to catch up on at least 3-4 chapters for each Psy. and Crim in my reading.. that's a lot..
forget Social Movements.. I haven't touched that thing since the 2nd chapter..
Chapters still doesn't have my Skip Beat book. although it's better if I'm not tempted or distracted.
I saw my geisha costume at the theatres on another girl.. it looked pathetic...and Ari's dress rocked far better.. I'm glad I didn't buy it..
wore my heels.. for the fun of it.. because I don't know when I would wear it again.
found out it was made in Vietnam!! very proud of them!! and so was my mom.. ^^
Went to Parmiss' house last friday. she invited me over.. didn't realize she intended it to be a sleepover.. but never got that part of the message, so I left home late at night from her place..
Saw Jodi there and we had fun together putting on makeup.
It was nice seeing them again.
so gonna start another day of university..and pray that I make it with decent marks.. (80% and up..although that's not lookiing to good with Crim and Psy.. or Soc.. >_>)
This was just a brief update of my week last week. |
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| nanowrimo 2009 post of flail. |
[Oct. 31st, 2009|07:07 pm] |
Title: Radical Stimulus.
Genre: Science fiction. |
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contemplative
confused